BLOG: A Significant Other

Stop and think for a moment. . . . Single men, this is especially for you.

How many men does she really have in her life? How many men would drop everything just to be her fabled "one-and-only?"

Whether she's in a relationship or not, you now have a woman in your mind, and you are probably, if doing as you've been told, thinking of every man that could possibly be involved in her life, in one way or another.

Has she recently broken up with someone? Is she currently in a relationship? Does she have a kid from a loser in the past? Or is the loser still somehow involved in her life? Honestly, the possibilities are endless on what has happened, and there's not a thing you can do about it.

 It seems like more and more, guys are trying to get with other guy's girls. WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO BRO CODE?!? If you're interested, stay interested, but keep looking. She may have already found her soulmate, and you going in there to try and take her away is not only a dick move, its fucked up. Why would you want to ruin her life, if shes happy with him now. And if you really do have feelings for her, say something. If she's not happy in her current relationship, there's a chance you saying something could be the perfect way for her to leave. Maybe she's too afraid to be alone.

On that note, all you little fuck boys need to chill. There's a reason that there are nearly 9.6 million "families" in the United States alone are lead by single mothers. Let's write that number out, shall we?

NEARLY 9,600,000 CHILDREN ACROSS AMERICA BELONG TO FAMILIES WHERE THE MOTHER IS SINGLE. 

Does that number seem big? It should. 

With that being said, there are statistically more women than men in this country. BUT! Out of ever 10 single-parent households, at least 8 of them will be ran by MOTHERS.

To the mothers out there; single guys who are looking for a long term relationship, and who don't care whether you have children do exist.

Let's take this a step further, shall we?



Take a look at me.
 

You must admit, not matter what picture came up, you puked a little bit.
It's okay. I know that I am ugly. Nobody has to remind me of that. And even when I find something in my life that is remotely close to good and positive; no matter what the circumstances are, something ALWAYS, inevitably has to come along and ruin it for me. It doesn't matter what stage of my life I am in, I will always be weighed down with oppression.

I faced a situation shortly before I graduated high school. I've talked about it a few times. And every time I think I am doing better. Every time I seem to be doing well, that damn situation raises its ugly, deceiving head, and reminds me that no matter what I say, people will always be judging me. People will always think they know the story. People always think whatever they want to in order to make themselves feel like a better person. And the aftermath of it is colossal. Who would have ever thought that my life could have been destroyed based on lies? I sure as hell didn't.

Nobody ever realizes how much torment I endure because of that bullshit. Nobody has any idea how badly it fucked me up. There are many nights, just like tonight, where I am up wayyyyy later than I want to be, stuck with thoughts that will haunt me for the rest of my life. How many people realize that a lie can destroy someone's life a hundred thousand times worse than anything a truth ever could.

I used to be a soft, caring person who was always there for someone that needed me, regardless if I knew them or not. The tables have turned, ever so slightly, and when I am in need of someone, there are few people available to me, and even fewer genuinely seem to care.

Many of the people I call my closest friends, I honestly believe that they are annoyed by me. I honestly believe that they do not care about me at all, and instead they just put up with me. And the more time I spend with the people that I do believe care, the less I feel that they really do. I am a destroyed, damaged, and wounded piece of crap that deserves nothing. And anyone that shows me more than that I instantly start to doubt, because I don't deserve it.

You could literally ask almost anybody in this town around my age group what they think of me, and I garuntee you will get one of three answers. The first answer you may get would be that they don't know me. The second, would be someone who wants to talk shit on me. The third is going to be people that know me. They would tell you their honest opinions, which I would hope would be positive. They would, hopefully tell you that I am indeed not a bad person, but an unpopular, poverty-stricken poor kid that was targeted by the "popular" crowd. Hopefully, they would tell you that they don't believe everything they hear, and that I deserve more of a shot to life than what I have been provided.

Unfortunately, the life I have been given seems to be one destined for isolation and loneliness. This life seems to be one where I will never be ahead. Rather, I will always be getting by with the skin of my teeth. Because, let's face it, no matter how smart you are, or how fast you may learn, or even how much you dedicate yourself, there will always be that one person that singlehandedly destroys everything you've ever worked for, whether you try to stop them or not.

I will never be an important person. I will never be someone who finds love. I will never be someone to overcome a small fraction of my obstacles. I will always be one who hurts, especially emotionally, I will always be afraid to reach out for help when I need it, and I will always be one who is too distrusting of the system to ever support it. I will always be shy, and always be scared, that no matter what I say, or who I say it to, it will always come back to bite me in the ass.

And to the few friends I have that really do care, thank you for loving someone as worthless as me.


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