BLOGS: Where am I going in Life?

Sitting here, I am left alone with my thoughts, and where my mind takes me. Right now I am sitting here, trying to figure out what is going to happen in my life. Where do I want to go? What do I want to do? What am I doing with my life? Quite honestly, I have no idea. I am really wanting to go on a trip to France, Indonesia, and Australia. What purpose would that serve in my life? Wouldn't it be better if I waited until I had someone to go with? I am full of questions. Maybe some of them don't need to be answered now. Here is what I know. No matter how much I love my job right now, I am not going to be at Pizza Hut for the rest of my life. If not at Pizza Hut, where? I don't know. I can't even make up my mind for what I want to study in College. I can picture myself in an office. Maybe being a lawyer would be something to consider? I don't know. I want to leave Casper, I know that. Where do I want to go? I have no idea. I think about Colorado or California. These two places have always been on my mind. Now I have a reason to go to California, but I don't know anybody there. Life is very scary in that aspect. I am already alone, for all practical purposes. The only reason I have to go to California will not come to be needed for 5 or more years. Why would I want to go to a place where I have no roots? Well that is an easy question to be answered. I want to start new. I want a new chapter. But is going away going to solve my problems? No, not solve them, but maybe I can get more answers somewhere else.

Right now, I want to apologize if this seems very un-thought out. I am just writing as my mind goes, where my mind takes me. These are my thoughts. Maybe if some of you have answers for some of my questions, advice, ect. PLEASE leave a comment below. I would appreciate them.

Why do I want to leave Casper? Well, because of the things that happened. It is going to take alot of time, and money to get situated in a new place, somewhere else. It would be nice if I knew where to start for a new job to pull in more money, or a second job, or whatever. Maybe I should slow down, and get money for a new job. Well, I could, but I really want to leave Casper ASAP. It is a scary idea to be totally independent. It would be nice, but how much of a need is there? Well, there is a pretty big need to leave town. For my mental well being. For my sake of happiness. But then the question of where comes up again. And then when I get there, how am I going to make friends, get roots into a new place? Ultimately, the goal is to find my soulmate. As is the goal for everyone else my age, yet I have no experience in that field either. I have no idea what to look for in someone. They say that by the time people reach my age, they have met their soulmate. What does that mean for me? I don't know. I have absolutely no desire to be completely alone. Would moving into my own place make  my insecurities go away? Absolutely not. Once again, I would be alone. A lot of the problems I have with myself lead back to being alone. If there was a way I could change that, I would, but I have once again, no clue where to go, what to do.

Basically, here are the questions I need answers for at this time, or in the near future.
  • Where am I going, or where do I need to be going in life? 
  • What do I want to do in life? 
  • How can I make the greatest impact?
  • Where am I needed to be in life that I can help people the most? 
  • How can I find who I need to be?
  • Would it be best to leave now, or wait a few years?
  • How do I begin looking for a job/place at a new place?
  • Would a bigger city, or a smaller one benefit me the most? 
  • What other goals need to be set? 
  • How can I make more specific goals to put me where I need to be? 
  • What is the value and purpose of my life (what am I needed for?)
  • Who is it that I need to meet to be the best me I can be? 
The list goes on and on and on. If anyone has any ideas, or hints I would love to hear them. I have tried praying on these questions, and I have gotten no inspiration or answers to anything. I am completely in the dark. I have no idea what is going to happen in life, and I am somewhat scared. I would appreciate any feedback in the comment section below.

Well, That basically sums up how I feel on life. Talk to ya guys soon. Always Sm;)e! 
Luc

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