Blog: Confused Beyond Belief

So, I want to talk to this one girl in particular.


You are by far the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. I love everything about you.
But, You confuse the crap out of me, in more ways than I care to list.

I love your voice, I love your smile, I love you. But you are constantly giving me mixed signals. I just do not know what to make of it.

I am in the process of trying to decipher my own feelings about you as well.
You make me feel ... Different. Happy. I am so enthralled when you talk to me. Even for the handful of minutes we spend together.

Our worlds are severely different, however. I have spent many nights crying because of you.

Months ago, I disappeared. I am sorry. But you were never far from my mind. I spent many nights writing letters to you. Letters that you may never see, but I have them. You are "My Dearest Sweetheart"

SHOUTOUT TO MEGAN CASSIDY! READ HER BIAS ARTICLE ABOUT ME (IN THE LAST BLOG) TO KNOW WHY I DISAPPEARED.


I love your spirit, your positivity. I love how you are always able to cheer me up, even on my worst days.

But then there are days like today, where I try and talk to you. And things just go horribly wrong.

Maybe I can be overly dramatic. Matter of fact, I know I can be. But you must realize how hard it is for me. I have never felt this way about anybody else.

I tell you I just want to be friends.That is partly true. But in all honesty, I want you to love me, in some degree. Even if it is just being friends.

I watched you in a different relationship before. There was someone who drove the relationship apart. Honestly, I think it was for the best. I didn't like the person you were with.

And his parting words were aimed towards me.
He LIED TO YOU, and said I was mean to him. What a load of C.R.A.P!
I was very respectful to this person because he was with you. I didn't want you thinking I was trying to destroy your relationship. But am I that big of a threat?!? REALLY?!?!

I am nothing more than a loser. In many senses, but primarily in relationships. I don't trust many people very often. Too many bad things happen when I trust people.

But your mixed signals are killing me. You act like you like me. You talk to me. You call me. You used to tell me you love me. Then you go on random sprees of ignoring me. Telling people you don't like me.

You are free to choose whatever path you want, but at the end of the day, all I want is you to be honest with me.

Can we just be friends? I wish I knew what you were thinking too. :/ JUST BE HONEST WITH ME.

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